This morning the green fists of the peonies are getting ready
to break my heart
as the sun rises,
as the sun strokes them with his old, buttery fingers
-Peonies, Mary Oliver

09 November 2008

Oh, Baby!

I am going to be Aunt Mary by next June.

Wow! For real? My brother is going to have a child? Ben is going to be a father? Crazy! I have to learn to see him in another role. Life seems to be dotted with role-changing. Ben used to just be my brother...this pesky older person who I competed with for attention from our parents. Then he became someone's boyfriend...and I ceased to be the most important girl in his life =]. Then Ben became an adult. He left the house, and lived at college. Then he got engaged to Amy, and he became a husband. He had more responsibilities, a wife, a job, a house, 2 cats, lol. And now...a child! When you have a child....well, it's a lot different from getting a dog, for instance. The thought I can't escape from is that this baby is going to be a permanent person. He/she isn't going to leave. They're born, and then they're there. They're THERE.

Well, anyways, I am excited, as you might imagine! Amy is going to be hugely pregnant when my graduation comes around. Yayy! I can't wait to hold the baby, spoil the baby, give the baby presents, coo at the baby, take pictures with the baby, play with the baby.... :-D

"Now the thing about having a baby - and I can't be the first person to have noticed this - is that thereafter you have it."
-Jean Kerr